2026 tarot pull
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Happy new year fellow furtherers! this letter reaches 400 people- thats pretty wild. so thank you for following along another year! i feel this is will be a big one. ready to crush it.
this song is an older one
I wrote most of this last night before I read the news today which I’m disturbed by. I despise what is happening.
****The New Year Pull*****
2026- The cards as i found them as they found themselves finding me
“ im never where i want to be “ peter gabriel sings in solsbury hill. that part always got me. i remember it really getting me one night alone in a haunted room at an abandoned motel in the desert many years ago. but this is also coupled with the wise “wherever you go there you are” . like most things the predicament is YOU… or I or ME. You may have an idea in your head of some future “ i made it” scene. the pinnacle moment of personal achievement . who will be there? how will you know? then what happens?
is the internal rolling stone gathering no mental moss. (though moss is like my favorite lifeform. maybe i be more like moss) the life liquid passes right through. maybe this is something that cannot be captured. maybe if held onto it turns to poison. maybe there is always thirst? i dunno what it represents for you, i may know what it is for me…
but i couldnt say either
push all the way. to the cliffs of imagination. get right on the edge. feel the peril from the possibility of random personal malfunction. some fatal hiccup. the body messing up. the mind betraying. the bolts coming loose. an existential unraveling.
things always seemed to me to be bound by tension/s. life/self held together by unknown forces relentlessly smashing each other. extruding into a form that is us. energies colliding. we tend to acclimate to our tension, like some environmental hum that is lost in the background of our soundscape. the refrigerator. the wifi router. the street light. the highway. the weight on the eyebrows. the pinch in the temples. back pain. joint pain. paralyzing anxiety. and people move through their day in various compromises of acclimation. some let the world know their every discomfort, some stoically stuff it away, tension remains. the ego is tension.
“when did you start smoking?”
“smoking relieves tension”
“whend you get so tense”
“when i started smoking” ~ donna & james - twin peaks
this world is nuts. theres too much of it too take in. it is panic inducing to be made aware of every horror happening around the globe. you can be laying on your couch blowing out your adrenal glands watching tik toks. we subject ourselves to heightened states of virtual stress. with no avenues for actionable resolution. zero resolve. just the blender of creation.
but over the years ive been able to release some tension in the form of a nervous tick that makes my neck violently crack. really been dialing that in lately.
i need serious yoga. everyday
trippers logic says unraveling is good. if you are able to not identify with your tension then it should be easily released. lighten your load. visualize it peeling away like a flaky crust. let it take you with it. become the crumbs
pushing this train is the feeling of fulfillment or rather the quest thereof. emotions are hard to sustain. there is a whole rigamarole one must do. gratitude is a practice. you may not be where you want to be but you will have to find gratitude for being wherever that is. or else a whole gamut of bad feelings will sneak in, jealousy, self-pity, bitterness, anger, rage. gratefulness is a protective operating system like a lid on a petri dish. it is probably the only sustainable feeling. no they are all fleeting? well play the game - imagine the place you want to be and then imagine how grateful you are to be there. repeat until you are there. but not a wish “i would like to live in a house” like a reality “i live in a house” THANK YOU
what is it that you want?
maybe i need to take a more theatrical approach to living. there is a lot reactivity out there. people hear something and they flip out. we live in the nadir of reflective times. but who are the provocateurs? the button pushers, trolls, and rage baiters? lets go into pinata world. i would love to swing blindly and see what i can crack open. let the candy flow!
embrace chaos ! be the chaos ! observe the results
GIVE IT ALL AWAY GIVE IT ALL AWAY GIVE IT ALL AWAY
whats the point of holding onto it? when does the right moment ever come?
Well i wish you a beautiful weekend. I wish you clarity and conviction. I wish you charity from unexpected places. May all your dreams conspire to awaken you to your fullest life. i want to make a hat, cape, and pair of pants.
~dang
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A grand treat, thank you!